Go away, please

i hate myself. i just hate myself. i rather not tell you whats going on my head right now >;( oh god, why do i have so many the most yuckiest thing ever? im fed up and very tired to take care of it! i tried so many times to 'poof' that thing away in my life but it didnt work ;( i feel uncomfortable when im hanging out with my friends or meeting them up. seriously. sometimes i felt like i want to lock myself up in the room for the whole day! its very a hardtime for me you know. i feel like crying if i thinks about this shit :( eh, or maybe i should wear a paperbag all day long. how about that? [sighs]